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March 12, 2013



The Lonely

The truth is subjective to what the lonely lets in.

Emalyn Spicer has lived with it for a long time. She thinks it goes back further than her memories do. She knows it goes back further than the OCD.

When she arrives at college, her OCD's and the lonely refuse to let her have her wish to be normal.

When she meets Sebastian and starts to fall for him, she lets herself believe it's possible to outrun the things chasing her from the past. But how to you get away from the things inside of you? How do you run from yourself?

Just as she gives up and succumbs to the lonely, the unthinkable happens. She finds herself once again trapped in the dark, once again held against her will.

This time she meets the lonely head on. In the darkest corners of her mind, she discovers there is more to her world than she ever imagined. She discovers that the lonely was there for her, protecting her from herself and her secrets.

How far would you go to find yourself?

This is a dark and captivating novel, tread lightly

Don't forget to check out the companion novel due out in the summer of 2013, The Lost Boy. Maybe that'll help you sort out the things you have leftover from the story



“He clears his throat, "Have you considered he sees you as a girl at school? Not all girls are whole when you meet them. Sometimes you have to help them get there. Right now, you are a broken girl. That doesn’t mean that you'll always be broken. That doesn’t make you less of a girl." He clears his throat again, "I'll call the doc. She'll want to talk to you."
The tears in my eyes don’t come out. They stay in there like tiny kaleidoscopes, trying to make the world the way I need it to be. My words don’t come right away either. I don’t hear the click on his end when I whisper, "I'm not broken." But he isn’t there. He never really is. He is the master of not being there.”

“He grabs my arm and pulls me into his embrace. I close my eyes and it's perfection. The kiss is needy and desperate even if it's closed mouth. It's the things we don't say. Words like, I needed you more than anything in the entire world and here you are. It's the sentences neither of us can say. Because neither of us likes grand gestures or big words. But the kiss says it all, the desperate tremble of his fearful lips against mine, speak volumes compared to the words we may or may not be able to say.” 

“He grabs my hands and lifts them up in the air. I grip the railing on the top of the bed.
"Don’t move those hands," he whispers into my nape. I nod and lick my lips. I'm on my tiptoes. My breath is catching and coming out spurts of rough air. His hands run down my arms. I shiver and pant. His lips brush the back of my neck. He sweeps my hair to one side, kissing down my shoulder blade. Heat and nerves battle low in my belly as his hands grip my hips, pulling me back to him.
"Don't let go of that railing, Sarah." His words are growled between kisses and licks. I hear the menacing threat in them.” 

Character Profiles

Emalyn Spice is a nineteen year old college freshman with severe OCD and a haunted past. She has a best friend named Michelle (Shell) and a benefactor. She has no one beyond them. She runs, not because she wants to but because she has to. Her life is handicapped and stunted from her problems. Her only wish is to be normal.

Sebastian is not what he seems. He is the perfect guy. He tolerates too much and loves too fast. His inexplicable ability to understand her and love her regardless of the things wrong with her, make him the easy guy to love and want in the book. Easy doesn't always mean right.

Eli is the mystery man in it all. He is the one person who gets her. He truly is the person who sees her for who she is, who she really is. His sanity and ability to function is dependent upon her being healed. His devotion is unparalleled. You just don't know that, or what to expect.


The Lonely by Christina Perri
Skinny Love by Bon Iver
Fix You by Coldplay
Midnight City by M83
Dance with me Tonight by Olly Murs
Trouble Maker by Olly Murs
Try by Pink
Talk Show Host by Radiohead
Sweet Nothing Calvin Harris

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